The new year just started and I already have some great news: I am featured in Fashionista Magazine this month! In between all the big Dutch bloggers such as Lizzy van der Ligt and Anna Nooshin, there is me. Can someone pinch me please?
Last week I turned 24
Usually after 21 people start resenting growing older – myself included – but this year I felt differently. You see, one year ago I decided to change my life around and take a leap of faith: starting my own company. Did I study about business? Nope. Did I ever have a blog before? Not really. Did I know what I was doing? Most definitely not. Would I change my decision if I could? Never. Did I learn some of the most valuable life lessons ever? More than I could’ve imagined.
I think my 23rd Life-year might have been one of the craziest rollercoaster rides I have ever had in my life. I’ve been broke most of the time, I had a burnout and managed to get out of it, I moved to another country to live together with the love of my life and had to start from zero, I made new friends and had to say goodbye to others, I was constantly struggling to balance my blog with university and model work, and I am pretty sure I am still going through a quarter-life crisis… I think I could keep going on forever, but I will spare you with further details.
“Why do you call your blog a company? Isn’t that just a hobby?” To answer you shortly? No, no it’s not. I personally underestimated the amount of work that comes with a blog – or let me rephrase that – a good blog with interesting content, nice pictures and social media community (amongst others). So this year I also learned: how to photoshop, how Instagram & Snapchat work, how to develop a personal style, what is Google Analytics, how to do my own administration, how to navigate myself in unknown places, what are the best ways to collaborate with brands, and so on. Maybe these things might not be essential life lessons on their own, but look at the bigger picture: I learned how to be an indepenent grown-up. Did all of these things go well immediately? Hahaha, I think you know the answer to that one yourself.
*verrryyy grown-up… as you can clearly see
But that’s the thing: if I wouldn’t have taken this leap of faith and risk everything to follow my passion, it might have taken me years to learn all of these things. What are those sayings again? “If your Dreams don’t scare you they aren’t big enough“, or “If you think you are in control you are not going fast enough“? If #SpiritQuotes would be a thing, I am pretty sure these would be mine… true life lessons right there. Bottom line is: instead of being afraid of failure, you should be thankful for it and embrace it as much as you can. I know it is really easy to feel down if you fail, but the trick is to look at it positively and ask yourself: what did I learn from this mistake? How can I improve myself with this new information? Admit that failures happen in life (we are all human after all), and consider it an opportunity to do better next time. BOOM, instead of shrinking you are growing. You’re welcome.
Last but not least, I realized that because of my blog I have been on much more adventures in this 1 year than I had in the past 3 years. At first it started off as an ‘I need to visit pretty places to make good pictures for my blog‘ kinda thing. But soon enough I simply became addicted to discovering new places and experiences, I learned how to love adventure. I started hiking in the mountains of Catalonia to find places of which I never even realized that they were there. I traveled to more than 7 countries this year, and I tasted more types of weird foods than ever before (which is impressive since I am a total foodie). I experimented with countless unknown beauty products, hair styles, fashion trends, workout tips and recipies than I ever had experimented with in my whole LIFE. It might sound silly to you, or perhaps you totally understand what I am talking about. But ever since I decided to take this leap of faith I feel SO alive! I feel like I am not wasting a single day, because each day is a new adventure with new things to learn and discover. Good things. Bad things. The Whole Shebang.
Pfiew what a relief, I feel like I’ve been wanting to talk about this whole ‘life lessons’ thing for a while already but I didn’t really know how. I wonder if any of you guys think I am crazy or relate to me in any kind of way… Let me know?
Lots of Love,
As you might have noticed, the fashion week season is in full blossom, yet I am hanging around in my comfy home in sunny Barcelona. In case you might wonder why: for the past few weeks – or even months – I’ve been under a lot of pressure and I decided to take it easy this season. I’ve been doing some research and I came to the conclusion that I’m on the edge of a burnout due to an overload of expectations, workload, pressure and perfectionism.
“But you’ve been doing great! What happened?” Exactly, I’ve been doing more than great all these weeks. In fact, I’ve been doing SO great that my current workload is around 75 hours a week, not counting the other hours I spend thinking about work on the side (I’m not even joking, I’ve been keeping track of my hours). It would be lovely to already earn enough money to hire people to take on a part of that workload, but as long as I’m not there yet, I’m on my own. And since I want my work to be top quality, I will not stop working until it’s perfect. Competition is though, can you blame me?
I was doubting whether I should write about this, or even let anyone know that I might have issues since the world of social media is supposed to be perfect. I neither wanted to give the idea that I’m trying to get compliments or attention with this: I simply figured that since my blog is supposed to be about me helping people with my personal experiences, it would be hypocrite of me to leave out the negative things. And who knows, maybe I can actually help someone by talking about my own experience. Especially in the world of creative freelancers I am sure there are more of you out there that are on the edge of a burnout, since we never seem to be able to stop working. So this one is for you: let’s get better together! In the video I talk about everything you need to know, but in case you want to read more details, check out the text below: